I fulfilled a dream of mine and moved out to Colorado, in hopes of climbing mountains, enjoying nature, and finding peace and balance in my life.
Without the healing of trauma, I rebounded back into unhealthy behaviors with unhealthy people, who continued to hurt me like everyone else had. I once again became an alcoholic and entered into another domestic violence relationship. This time with an atheist. Not only did he mentally, emotionally and sexually abuse me, but He was the pawn satan used to pull me away from God for good.
I became an atheist and everything went dark. I lost the Holy Spirit, and with it, I lost hope, love and real connection to the One true God that was holding me through it all.
Yet again God moved.
All at once, my relationship imploded and my health tanked (reminding me of my time in the hospital 14 months earlier). I needed real help to heal my mind and body.
So I humbled myself and finally hired a nutritionist to help me heal the infections and autoimmune struggles that had been killing me. And I began to listen to wellness podcasts about meditation and mental health to help me with what I thought was anxiety.
The day my boyfriend and I split, my heart moved. I stood in our spare bedroom saying “I know there’s a God, and I’m going to be spiritual!” In an instant, I moved from one demonic trap through my connection to Yahweh, into another demonic trap. And I surrendered my soul to the New Age Occult.
Over the span of 2 years I sold my soul to satan again and again as I dove deeper into the New Age Occult. I got further lost in the dark spiritual side of yoga, creationism and eventually something similar to scientology. This would eventually lead to demon possession, which would lead me back to Jesus.